Thanks for all your kind words guys (and gals).
I wrote that in a real boiling point last night. I was in a bad spot in my own mind and I appreciate all your guy's support and wisdom. It actually got worse for me after my lunch break, but when I pulled into my driveway, there was my boy wanting a hug.
I feel better tonight. I got my head on straight before I walked in here at Kink..... I mean, the store, and prayed heavily before I came in. I know this is short term. I don't know when Im going into the Academy, could be this year, next or maybe even never. But I can always learn from these situations and show character in stressful times. Even God loves Douchbags, right?