Originally Posted by Raisor
Oh I don't mind THAT, I mind that my kids 30 years from now are going to wonder why their dad went crazy.
That and the possibility that your wife could read about all your conflicted feelings for the 'other girl' and very little mention of your feelings about her.
Just out of curiousity, was Katie in the wedding party? Was she at the wedding?
For what it's worth, I think this is the way of the universe. I had many relationships with women where I was seemingly on an emotional rollercoaster. One day everything was impossibly perfect and the next day was like a dose of hell, followed by more euphoria, which preceded yet more blackness...you get the picture. When I met my current wife, there was none of that...after the initial "I want to jump your bones as often as possible" wore off, it was like a calmness fell over me. It was what my mother always referred to as simply 'You'll know.' which was a constant source of angst throughout my younger years. How would I know?... what would the signs be?... She would never elaborate on the simple statement, 'You will know.' Well, now I know and for me it comes down to this:
When I listen to my heart, it tells me she lives there...in fact, it says she has always lived there and it took this long for me to listen to my heart. I've been married now for over seven years and when I think of her I still get a lump in my throat and sometimes my eyes tear up because my heart is so full. It is a feeling of contentment, not excitement...I am calmed by her presence because wherever she goes is my home. Because it is a peaceful thing, many people mistake it for being somehow less emotional than the exhuberant excitable love that I experienced in my youth. Not so, it is a feeling much, much deeper than that. It's a feeling that grows in time, it deepens, it does not diminish. It envelops all of me, every aspect of my being is included, she is always with me, she lives in my heart as I live in hers. When you meet your soul mate your heart will know; When you learn to listen to your heart, you will know.