Re: In search of some uplifting words.
If the franchise is for sale, then everyone including your father has admitted that it is not going to work. You should not feel that you are leaving your family "high and dry." Eveyone in your family knows your situation about your old life and your girlfriend. If it was not going to work out, you were going back to your old life. You are not changing your plans. You have not deceived your family.
I feel you know what to do but are just afraid to pull the trigger. We all (us guys) have male pride. Male pride is good to have to a point, however it has also destroyed marriages, friendships, and in certain situations have gotten people killed ( D.U.I's flying aircraft in bad weather, etc.).
Being a responsible adult and a man sometimes requires you to "fold." Admitting a mistake is not bad, it does not make you less of a person or a failure. We all have failed. The people who I admire the most in life are people who admit failure, and do the things nessessary to correct the situation.
Rick Pitino is one person I admire, because he admitted he made a mistake. He had just won a national championship in 96, and lost in the NCAA finals in 97. He was on top of the world. He was a god in Kentucky. He was offered a chance to go home to the North East and take over the most famed NBA franchise in history, the Boston Celtics. He would be given the head coaching job, GM, and be President of the Celtics. He would be the highest paid coach in the NBA. He felt he could not pass this up and he took the job. We all know how it ended. He failed. He was not fired. They could not afford to fire him. He quit. He left something like 27 million on the table. He could of taken a lot of college basketball jobs. He sat down with his wife and decided the best years of his life and his families life was in the state of Kentucky. When the job at Louisville came open he took it. He admitted he should of never left the University of Kentucky, it was a mistake. He had the chance to move back to Kentucky and he jumped at it. I hate the fact he left my Wildcats. However I admire the fact that he realized how good he had it here. Rick made decisions to correct his bad situation. This might be a poor sports analogy but it works for me.
I would sit down with your dad and tell him how you feel. He must feel horrible guilt for talking you into moving. It might be a huge relief to him if you actually moved back. Communication with your dad and brothers is critical. This is your family, it's all you got. Tell them how you feel, and that you love each and everyone of them, but you got to move back. They will understand. Pull the trigger. You are in my prayers, good luck.
Not this year...maybe a Wild Card