Re: When does it all get easier?
What's in the past is in the past. No one can change it, so don't beat yourself up over it.
College is a tremendous time. Meet new people, try new things, go new places. Learn to look at the world around you in a different light. Learn what makes you tick.
Each moment that you spend pining away over what was/wasn't, is a moment that you are missing out on what is/could be.
I'm also a big believer that everything happens for a reason. At some point down the road, your experience is going to impact the way you make a decision, the advice you give to a friend, etc. Chalk it up as a learning moment, and move on.
Carpe Diem, my friend.