Re: How i screwed everything up.
I don't know you as much as you don't know me. I can't even imagine feeling the way that you do so I won't begin to attempt advice. But one thing that I do know after reading through this thread is that it is evident that there are people that care about you. Some that know you and many that are complete strangers on a personal level. I pray that this support strengthens you and helps you to get well and get your life on track for God's purpose.
"Are you trying to say Jesus Christ can't hit a curveball?!"