I credit the members of this board, the owners and posters for a lot of what helped me in the most difficult time of my life. Reading the notes sent to me put much of it in perspective. And baseball is always an outlet, a way to distract me from dwelling on things i can't control by making me think about things i can't control.
But it is still kinda hard for me, thinking about what i almost lost forever, what i would have missed out on. What is worse is there are times i still think about it. BUt when i do, i try to think about my kids and all that I'd miss. It may not always snap me bag, but it eases me back.