Originally Posted by westofyou
That's self inflicted, that's your own cross to carry I suppose
Absolutely; and our fandom probably reveals quite a bit about who we are as people I'd imagine. My wife always says I am very much all or nothing. I rarely do anything in moderation. Sometimes it manifests itself in not-so-good ways like when I devour the entire cake or pizza
Sometimes, it manifests itself in good ways like how I run my business...I am thorough, organized, respectful and exceedingly obsessed with my reputation.
I don't like to "wing it" on weekends. Every Monday, I send my wife an email detailing an outline for our plans that coming weekend...I like to plan specific things and have defined actitives to look forward to....these often revolve around my sports teams.....I have Thunder season tickets and for most every game I like to try and make it an event...dinner and drinks first, then the game...or when I take my daughter make it a big deal, etc... This OCD type stuff is not my wife's style and she will often pump the brakes for me, but she more or less flows along with it.
So how I root for my teams and how I react to their results really is just an extension of who I am.
I always use this example to try and describe to my friends/family who either don't follow sports or just enjoy it without a rooting interest...
On Sunday mornings in the fall when I wake up, I feel like a kid on Christmas. I am giddy. Overflowing with excitment that I often have trouble sleeping the night before. I pumped about the Redskins game...getting both TV's set up, cooking, having people over, the whole nine yards. If I look outside and see my neighbors mowing the lawn or doing normal activites, I feel sorry for them
I think, "this is just another day for them..." Meanwhile, I am just on cloud 9 anticipating the game and the day. The flip side is that there has to be something on the line...and if they lose, it's a bit deflating. It does not ruin my experience or make me kick the dog or refuse to tuck my daughter into bed that night....but wins make Monday mornings seem not as bad.
Win or lose I am fully functioning member of society...but inside, it does affect how I feel. Usually short lived and after losses I start looking forward to the next weekend by Tuesday or Wed, but it does have an affect.
As a kid, I associated holidays with many positive things...food, family, being off from school, presents, new stuff, having friends over, etc.... and meaningful Redskins games are near the top of that list. Nothing like a huge Redskins-Giants game in late December with the smells of my Mom's pasta sauce filling the house.
Over the last 20 years, the Redskins have had precious few Decembers with meaningful games....this has not ruined Christmas for me or made me ungrateful for all I have, but there is a void there and every year when they lose the game that clinches another lost December, I feel the sting a bit. Its funny, if you ask me to rattle off some of my favorite holiday memories, even the ones that don't directly involve the Redskins seem to have occured when they were good
So, it matters to me tomorrow. Every year since 1995 I have watched the LCS with a bit of envy, hoping someday the Reds could go back....I just want the chance... I remember the 1995 NLCS very clearly, and I remember how much I anticipated those games. I'd like to have that again...its been long enough. And if I don't get it, I'll be pretty disappointed. And then I'll start thinking about Redskins-Vikings this Sunday...and when the Redskins start to suck as always I start getting psyched for the Thunder....and the cycle rolls on....