I could actually feel my heart rate increase in the 9th... I was holding my 10 month old son and pacing. My father-in-law picked up my daughter from school but just drove her around because he knew it was the very end of the game and he didn't "want to subject her to that"
The Bruce AB was excruciating. He finally did what I asked him to do all year... Total focus, wait for his pitch, battle. No guessing or give up swings. I am not made at Bruce for flying out... He did everything he could to try and win that game for us. The team gave a tremendous effort today... And came up short. I am 100% content with what they gave.
But that doesn't change the fact, that it was indeed, a choke. Not a historically colossal choke maybe, but a choke for sure. This was a 90% FT shooter missing two to win the game... A kicker shanking a 30 yard FG... Winning 1 of 3 at home when you haven't lost three in a row all year is not asking much. Doing so when your opponent has 1 hit entering the 9th inning is asking even less.
Today, the Giants made some fabulous plays. Their star hit a grand slam, their ace kept us at bay, and two of their role players made huge defensive plays. We came close to matching those plays, but we didn't.
Baseball is a game of patience and process. But in the playoffs, you run out of time. Drawing a walk or getting an infield single isn't good enough. Sometimes in October someone has to step up and put one in the stands. We just couldn't quite get there.
13 years ago on a Friday night in Milwaukee Marquis Grissom robbed Eddie Taubensee of what very well might have been a game winning hit in extra innings. When I look back at 1999, I remember that amazing summer with fondness for sure. But nothing is etched in my memory like that Grissom catch. I can still see it plain as day. I guess you could say it haunts me.
And 13 years from now I have a feeling I will see the many plays today that didn't go our way that might have changed the outcome.
It stings.... When will I get over it? Never. And that's the truth. Have you gotten over the joy of the 1990 team? Do you not care about that anymore? Sure you do... And if the A's rallied to win the series you wouldn't remember it so fondly, would you?
That's why the tension was so thick today... Because the outcome that was about occur is forever irreversible.