Originally Posted by coachpipe
Yea I know what youre saying as I am living to work instead of working to live which is tough. And Im with you on the whole religion thing. I just find it rather silly and contradicts itself way too often and if you have common sense its easy turn away from it. I feel thats my problem mostly. I guess I just dont understand people mostly. With the honey boo boo and jersey shore and lil wayne supporters. It just seems to me the ignorantly stupid people are the loudest and I just hate sitting back and listening to their non stop b.s. And after listening for far too long these people continue to talk and I just cant hold it in anymore and then its like arguing with a cat. I need to separate myself from media aswell because living like this is far too much
There are a billion different things in this universe that can occupy our mind. You need to ask yourself why, out of the billions of things in this universe, you are being exposed to & obsessing on the handful of things you are.
Maybe it is your environment. Maybe it is your perspective or thinking. Most likely it's both. The brain is incredibly complex & at a certain point in all our lives, it can experience periods of "sickness" or anxiety or unhealthy perspective when things seem bleak or "without purpose".
In my own experience, my "darkest" days were also my most idealistic days where I was hyper-obsessed with "people" and how they're "awful" and "ignorant" etc etc. This time was also a time in my life when I was very solitary and alone & I spent all my days thinking and dwelling and theorizing. The common thread was that this was all happening in my brain & thoughts & idealistic beliefs.
In hindsight, all my obsession on other people's actions & morality & ignorance stemmed from my own insecurities and unhappiness in my own life. All my unhappiness was being born & bred & fed & raised inside my brain. It wasn't until I met my now wife a year later & I started seeing a therapist (and subsequently began to interact with other real life humans more) that I realized almost all my idealistic frustrations were naive, false ideas I invented. Essentially, I created my own unhappiness and sickness and I believed it was everyone else in the world's fault.
I share this story from my life because I can relate to the instinct to "distance" myself or "detach" or retreat further into solitary & my own head, and I know that if I had, I could have found myself in a very hopeless, dark place. Even if your strongest instincts are to vilify other people & detach from others, you NEED to do the exact opposite. You may not be ready to run out & be social and enjoy the company of others but you can look into seeing a therapist (just tell your general doctor your feelings and thoughts & they'll help refer you) and you can begin slowly building your relationships as you slowly get a better handle on what mental, spiritual, chemical, historical or genetic factors may be influencing your blue period. Remember that you are fully entitled to peace & happiness and it is possible in a very satisfying, simple way. The complexity and chaos of the world doesn't disprove your possibility for personal peace.
You can always come here and vent or share if you need to!!!!