Re: So, old people on this board, how do you deal knowing you will die soon?
I have a heart condition....a brain aneurysm...I live each day on the edge and as fully as I can. I don't dwell on when...just on now. I was young in my own time and enjoyed the hell out of life. Great kids with terrific grandkids...good friends made through the years and savored now, all the more appreciated for their possible finality. Time lies stretched forever in my past where the memories seem endless. Time ahead seems compressed into fleeting moments that fly away faster than I am aware they occur. Its perception...each hour is the same as always but each one so much less a part of my total experience they seem diminished in length. It gives me patience for things that once seemed too painstaking or slow...not that I am more patient...only my perception of time has sped up as I have slowed down. Now if I spend a full hour just rapt watching my youngest grandson at play it only seems a nonce. I can enjoy things I was always in too big a rush to see before. Paradox, huh? I am not afraid...hell...I hope you have as rich and full a life and that morning you awake and realize you are 60 or 70 and youth has jilted you (without warning and all at once it seems) that you enjoy fully the new stage you've entered. Not "near death" but "heightened life".