No, this isn't about Pete Rose.
Today I mark my 14th wedding anniversary. I look back and cannot believe we have gotten here. It's like a blur. One minute my kids are in diapers, the next one is in college. My goals for this year are to put the remote down and spend more time with my wife. I've become too complacent in our relationship. She recently had some friends that just packed everything up and moved to Las Vegas, and she has the itch to change our life. So, I need to do something big this year, something that says we aren't going to drift till we retire. We don't vacation, we don't take trips, because we never have the money. So that has to change.
I've never been good at telling her how much she means to me. Another thing for me to work on. I argue too much. I always have to be right, even if I am wrong. I just want her to be happy, but I know right now she is not.
I wish she knew that she is the first thing I think of each morning, that I can only sleep when she's next to me. I wish she realized how much she has introduced to me, and that without her my life would be work, then home, TV then bed. I don't converse well with people face to face. Generally, I don't like people. I'm like the unabomber minus the bomber part. A hermit before my time. Connie forces me out in the open. She forces me outside my comfort zone. She tries so hard to make me a better person.
I can't imagine a day without her. 14 down, a life time to go.