I run all the time at night right now and feel the same way.
There is a house two houses down from mine that was completely renovated. My kids run up the driveway all the time and go to the backyard to look for bunnies. We walk back there with them and look around. Did this a few days ago. The thought never crossed my mind I could be shot and some dude on a message board could say “see, RTG! Wasn’t some innocent.” After I got gunned down in the street during a run. And then I remember I have white skin so that wouldn’t happen.
People that don’t think white privilege is a real thing in our society, I just don’t know what to say anymore. At this point it’s just denial.