During his son’s first big-league spring training, Dale Howard would often talk to Nick via phone. This was normal. The son often leaned on his father for advice both in life and in baseball, and the father would provide it because that’s what good fathers do.
Given the fragility of pitching, Dale would often ask how his son’s right arm felt. Most of the time, the response had been, “Great!”
But the response started to change.
“You’d get the, ‘Well, it’s all right,’” Dale said.
Dale had coached his son’s youth league teams. He knew Nick — who played shortstop and pitched because of his athletic throwing motion — would often play through pain. So as the responses shifted, Dale would handicap how bad the pain actually was.
“I knew it was probably killing him,” Dale said.
The conversations continued, and Nick grew more honest.
He had been working with Reds coaches on an adjustment to his arm slot, and everything had gone awry. His shoulder had started to flare up, which was affecting his pitching results and even his frame of mind.
“I don’t want to tell them I’m hurt because then I lose the opportunity,” he would tell his dad.
Dale talked his son through the long-term effects, but Nick kept pitching through the pain. Once the spring training in 2015 ended, Howard was assigned to High-A Daytona Beach. He struggled mightily. In 2014, he walked just 11 batters in 33 2/3 innings. In 2015, he walked 50 batters in 38 innings and posted a 6.63 ERA. The shoulder pain persisted, and an MRI showed a slight superior labrum anterior and posterior tear, so Howard decided to rehab his arm then shut things down at the end of 2015.
He returned in 2016, but the vicious physical and mental cycle continued to take a toll. His arm hurt. He couldn’t throw a strike or anything close to one. Thinking about what was happening only made it worse.
“Subconsciously, my confidence was deteriorating and things really got bad,” Howard said. “I’ll never really know if it was mental or physical with what happened with my control or command.”
The worst thing for a parent is seeing their children unhappy, and that’s the point Dale was at with Nick. Finally, the Howard family made the executive decision for Nick to get his shoulder checked out by the Reds’ team doctors. An MRI showed the tear had worsened. Essentially, Howard’s labrum was torn at the top both in the front and back of where it attaches to the biceps tendon. It required SLAP lesion repair surgery and months of rehab, the latter of which brought along even more problems.
The former shortstop whose athletic throwing motion led him to pitch no longer was throwing athletically. Everything felt forced. Robotic, even.
Howard arrived at home that offseason and Dale offered to play catch. Dad thought the positivity might help, but even in a light catch from 30 feet away, Nick was throwing the ball over his head.
“I was like, ‘Whoa,’” Dale said. “It was very, very difficult. Very difficult.”